The last night

Tonight I felt compelled to blog. In 2003 Matt (my partner) went to uni. It has been a roller coaster ride for him. He's study's film and has just finished his thesis on the subject. Tomorrow he goes home. Con you imagine what he's feeling. Ok ok lots of people go to uni. but here's someone who I love dearly, even though he demands breakfast. He loves life with a sense of wonder. This lovely intelligent crossdresser is my boyfriend and I'm so proud and lucky to have him.

Here's a video Matt started in his first year and decided to finish today.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1OAVx-sXS0k I love you. You can demand breakfast anytime.

Pete Doherty

It has been quite a nice day. I went to see Pete Doherty tonight, it was cool. He puts on a good performance. The Troxy is a great small venue in east London, about 20 minutes from my home. Oh yeah, guess played with him? Graham Coxen.

A real frustrating day

It has been a real frustrating day. It all started when I tried to access my bank online, I couldn't and I had to get my P.A., to phone my bank to sort it out. Eventually I got my online banking working again. I needed to see how much money I had. The plan was to go shopping at Westfield, a new shopping centre. So we kind of planned our route by looking on the net. So we went. We had to take a longer journey as there were engineering works everywhere. We got out of the tube at Shepherd Bush greeted by a flight of stairs. My P.A. went up to try and find someone to help us, while I was waiting, a guy came up and offered me a pound.

In the end we had to go back and I decided to go to eat in Lewisham as I could get a 54 home. Sitting in the pub eating lasagna, a woman came up saying, "ah, what a lovely girl," and starting spouting off about someone's son having cerebral palsy. "Can I give her a cuddle." By this time I was getting annoyed but by which point my P. A. stepped in and politely told her to go away.

Hopefuly tomorrow will be a better day. I'm going to see Pete Doherty.

getting on with life.

I don't blog much, sorry. I can't, I get too scared. If I open up too much will I look too stupid. I could write about trivia stuff, about getting an powered chair, a new speech aid, this would bore me, I guess you too.

My life is ok, have everything I need. I could emerse myself in making music. So why don't I? The truth is, I'm in love with a guy two hundred miles away. Things between us, are better than ever, though we nearly broke up a few weeks ago. I think I got too heavy, it scared him. Now I'm learning to go with the flow, busy doimg my own stuff, getting on with life.

Out clubbing

I went clubbing on Friday. I hadn't been for absolutely yonks. I had a great time. I love getting dressed up, as you can see from the photo.

I went to The Venue. It always looked a bit rough from the outside but circumstances led me there Friday. Once I got there I felt relaxed. Someone wanted to take a photo for the club's web site, I said fine. My p.a. left me to get on with it, which was cool. I even bought myself a drink. I asked if I went on my own, would they serve me, they said yes, as long as I got to and from the club okay. The only problem I can foresee is my bladder. I'll make sure I don't drink before hand.

The only sad part is, my photo is not on the web site, now I wonder why that is.

Apathy

I feel a strong sense of apathy today. I don't know why. It's as if have been on the weed yesterday but no. I should really go into the studio and do some music, but the motivation to do so isn't there. I need someone to collaborate with, a singer perhaps? The fact is the rainy day doesn't help.

http://www.zeitgeistmovie.com/

Okay I know I haven't blogged and this isn't a real post but take a look at this and tell me what you think. http://www.zeitgeistmovie.com/